wow...

wow...really not a good start to the week. house full of maggots, and as we're cleaning get a call and a really close friend of mom and dad has passed away...sat on the ground of the kitchen and cried...kind of amazing how you feel so much grief for someone else, but then it feels like it's happening to you all over again too...good thing ryan's a good husband. he sat with me for a while, and the cleaned up all the rest of the maggots while i went outside and talked with mom.

mainland-i-fied

Yeah!!! Nordstrom, 60 degree weather, Whole Foods, and now Target (pronounced Tarjay, with french accent). We're a totally MAINLANDiFIED Hawaii?!!!!! WOO HOO!!!!! :) :D :D

hmm...now if only Anthropologie and Paper Source would open here...guess I gotta have SOME reason to visit Seattle though, right? ;) hee hee...

whatever

Seattle might have had another stupid couple inches of snow, but I have 60 degrees in Hawaii for the 3rd night in a row!!! :) Bring out the Flannel PJs!!! :) :D

easier

It's easier missing mom when you know others miss her too....and easier when you have good family.

hard

moving on can be hard...

singing

I was half way through a song while driving today, before I realized that I was singing loudly. Top of my lungs loudly. The way I used to in the shower, the way I used to while cleaning or on the way home from work, the way I used to when Mom was around. It's been a long time since I've sung loudly, and it feels good.

when the shoe fits

I can't explain how good it felt being back in Seattle again. Even if for 3 days. I fit there...being with Cec, seeing my friends. My friends are like old shoes. ;) There's no pretense, no facade, no fluff or pomp and circumstance, they get me, they know me, they miss me, I fit. And when tears come to their eyes with surprise happiness, you know your loved for who you are...and I miss that. It was nice being back.