you know it's love when you can hold your baby as he's straining and whimpering because he doesn't know how to poop yet...
and you know it's love when you can hold your baby as he vomits down your back, and then 10 minutes later vomits down your front because you'd rather be able to comfort and console him then put him down.
being a mommy is special. :)
Monday, January 7, 2013
Sunday, January 6, 2013
Saturday, January 5, 2013
Peek-a-boo!
Tried to catch this several times over past couple days, but of course someone stops performing as soon as the camera comes out. :) It's cuter when he does it with Ryan's boxers that he pulls out of the (clean) laundry basket...and cuter when he laughs in between...but a diaper pad and little smile will have to do.
Here's Daniel's latest trick. :)
Here's Daniel's latest trick. :)
Friday, January 4, 2013
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Happy New Year
It's the evening of January 2nd, and I'm lying in bed with my 2 boys as they take a late nap, listening to Ryan softly snore and Daniel's breathing...and this unfamiliar feeling fills me briefly and I can identify it before it's gone. It's happiness. It's that light shiny feeling you get inside...that I used to get so often...but haven't felt since we lost Andrew...and before the sadness crept back in... I smiled to myself and realized that this is a good thing, and this is a good way to start the year... and then tears came to my eyes, because it's hard to be really happy without Andrew...but then you look at my sweet little boy sleeping beside me and you think, well how can I not be?
We made it through the Holidays, and that's a big step. It was hard to feel not entirely joyful like the Holidays normally are for us, but we made it through and though there were tears (lots of them) there were also lots of smiles and even laughter.
I refuse to say that 2012 was a bad year, because despite the incredible challenges we faced, we were also graced with such infinite joy for 4 months...but I think it's okay to wish for us and for those of you reading our blog that 2013 be a little better...be filled with peace, be filled with happiness, be filled with love, with hope and a little more stability.
Wishing you a very Happy New Year.
With Love,
Stacy, Ryan & Daniel
PS...one of my New Years Resolution is to be better at blogging particularly about Daniel so our mainland family and friends can be kept up to date more. ;)
We made it through the Holidays, and that's a big step. It was hard to feel not entirely joyful like the Holidays normally are for us, but we made it through and though there were tears (lots of them) there were also lots of smiles and even laughter.
I refuse to say that 2012 was a bad year, because despite the incredible challenges we faced, we were also graced with such infinite joy for 4 months...but I think it's okay to wish for us and for those of you reading our blog that 2013 be a little better...be filled with peace, be filled with happiness, be filled with love, with hope and a little more stability.
Wishing you a very Happy New Year.
With Love,
Stacy, Ryan & Daniel
PS...one of my New Years Resolution is to be better at blogging particularly about Daniel so our mainland family and friends can be kept up to date more. ;)
